Yesterday, in a class I am attending, we had an exercise in the dark. It was the first time since Dialog I had spent any time in “real” dark. But I instantaneously couldn’t comply with the exercise.
I had an immersive experience, disconnected from the proposed exercise, because of those voices in the dark, the movement, all the things you taught me about: mindspace, projections and amplifications in the dark… all this came to me all of a sudden. All I remembered was you and my “dark days”. Vivid memories of months and years in those few minutes…
And then it was over.
I arrived home, but couldn’t sleep at night—mainly because at one point I imagined telling you this, talking to you about this and many other things I know you would understand so well…
Then, when I was finally falling asleep, I could hear your voice asking:
“Was it real dark Ale?”
So I came here to answer: Nope. At one point I had to close my eyes not to lose the illusion of darkness… But we could have made it darker, it was just one light-trap away.
Things are better now, but I still miss you.